1 week postpartum

It's been over a week with Damon here outside the womb. The adjustment of having another life to watch after has been easy. Both me and Adam have felt as though we've had him here with us all along. It's kind of a weird feeling. In the hospital, Damon had a little bit of a struggle latching while breastfeeding, but we got to the point that I could eventually get him latched without help. We ended up holding off on getting him circumsized in hopes that he'd learn to breastfeed better without that disruption. We had our pediatrician do it the Monday after he was born. So he was 5 days old. Everything went well and he's recovering well.  It doesn't seem to have phased him much at all. The first night home- trying to feed him was a struggle. It's been a learning experience for both of us, but we've figured out how to manage in the meantime while we become pros! I won't lie. There was a while where I felt so frustrated that I was in tears because I felt so helpless. Being the mother of a child that is so dependent on you for life and comfort is a lot of pressure. So,  when he was not latching and was obviously starving,  he became frustrated too..making it harder for him to latch even more. Plus then there was me- frustrated and emotional.. and he could feel that. Anyway, that moment passed. Adam gave him a blessing which seemed to help. It was actually a pretty awesome experience.  Damon was screaming his head off until the blessing..Then he stopped as soon as it started. Then there I was, still bawling my eyes out. I honestly believe that infants can't talk right away because the veil is thinner for them. Having a priesthood blessing was something so familiar to him that it took his fears away. I honestly believe that. It sort of made me feel silly because I couldn't stop crying and then my 2 day old baby had it under control. After the blessing, we ended up calling the hospital to see what they suggest and the lady on the phone told us that it had been too long since he pooped and that he was literally starving. She then told us that we need to get formula to supplement with so that he can eat. So Adam went to the store at like 1am. I always had my mind made up that formula would be LAST resort and that I wanted to breastfeed if at all possible. But having that to fall back on has been a blessing and has helped me stay sane. We have gradually been using it less and less since then which means we're getting better at breastfeeding. Wahoo! Another thing besides latching that has been tough with breastfeeding is feeding on my right boob. The left side is so much easier and he latches so much quicker.  Today was actually the first day I was able to get him to latch on that side without having to hold him football style. Breastfeeding is not as easy as it sounds, but it's doable. Haha it's becoming so much easier already, but the first couple days home were spent in our bedroom all day. Now that I think if it.. as soon as my milk came in, it made a world of a difference!  The milk came in full force on Sunday. So that's 4 days after birth. The colostrum is in such short supply that when the milk comes in, it's totally different. Or at least that's how it's been for me.
Right now, Damon sleeps normally been 2-5 hours at a time. The first night home, he slept in between us on our bed. It wasn't bad, but I imagined it being easier to nurse laying down. So anyway,  the next couple nights, he slept in this bassinet thing that we got. It was easier to sleep, but was a pain to have to get him out of it multiple times in the night to feed. So the last couple nights, he slept on me and the boppy around my belly. It has made it easier to sleep while he eats and whatnot. Every time he wakes, he's hungry. I had always thought that there would be time spent where they are awake and of in lala land or staring into space. There's hardly any of that yet. He hates his hiccups.. which come at least once per day. Usually gets him real mad and he has a harder time latching when he's frustrated.
Adam went back to work on Tuesday..a half day. Starting Wednesday, he's been back full time. I've managed pretty well by myself so far. The hardest thing about everything now is finding time to feed myself. My mom has made meals for me while Adam has been gone which has been super helpful. I have a hard time trying to fix something while I'm trying to hold him or watch him because I don't want to wake him or make him mad. 
He's been an angel throughout everything so far.  I just feel bad that he has to be my guinea pig in figuring out how to be a mother. I use to tease Adam on how awkward he was holding babies before Damon was born. I'm not sure when it happened, but he's become a natural!  I'm super grateful for him and all he does for us.
Starting out at 7lb 14oz..he ended up weighing 7lb even at the pediatrician 2 days after birth. 3 days later at the circumcision,  7lb 11oz. So as far as I know,  that's normal. The pediatrician told us also that the person that told us over the phone that he was starving and hadn't pooped enough was full of crap. I don't know who told us that. Maybe it was just some receptionist who thought they knew what they were talking about. But our doctor prettymuch just told us that we're doing fine and that we can supplement with formula if we want,  but to ignore everything the hospital told us over the phone. That was reassuring. So we do still supplement at times.. sparingly. I have been pumping (yay insurance for covering that! ) as well so I usually just try to give him that if we're going to bottle feed. I was worried that using a bottle would make him lazy in latching to me, but I haven't noticed. If anything he's progressed in breastfeeding so I'm happy!
How am I feeling?  I have felt surprisingly good! This whole experience has physically been a lot easier than I had expected. My body is healing quickly and I haven't been overly sore either. We actually went to sacrament meeting (stayed in the lobby)and people kept telling us we were crazy for being out and about so quickly. I just felt that if i can walk around the house and sit around  the house, I can sit through at least 1 hour of church. Damon slept through the whole thing too! The only thing that I was worried about was him waking up and wanting to eat and us having issues breastfeeding would be 10x harder in public. But he was a champ!  I've found that as soon as I relax and just go with things, it's been a lot smoother and stress free.
A couple things that are my favorite so far..
-gas smiles
-his soft skin and hair. Rubbing his scalp seems to soothe him and I love that.