Well, it's induction day! Yesterday was my last day of work which was super weird. Today has been spent literally packing a bag and doing some last minute grocery shopping. I feel like I am forgetting something and that they should be more to do, but today has actually been super slow and uneventful. I have felt a mixture of emotions. At this point I feel like I am just mostly freaked out by the unknown. I have the type of personality that I don't let myself stress about things or let things get to me which causes me to have moments of freaking out when things get super close. It's a problem. It's kind of weird too, because whenever I express my fears to anyone, I get frustrated when people tell me that it'll be ok because you really just don't know. You could say I'm a pessimist. It was super weird last night laying in bed thinking about how it was going to be the last time that we get to sleep in our own bed without the baby. Luckily, I actually slept well. I had hoped to sneak in a nap sometime today, but that hasn't happened yet. The induction is till later tonight. We were told 9pm, but to call about 1 hour ahead to make sure there is room. Well, we already got a call from the hospital and she said they are busy and that we should call at 9 to see what it looks like. So we don't really know when we'll end up there. In the mean time, our bags are packed and we're just twiddling our thumbs pretty much. It's my sister in law- Chandras birthday today so we might go spend time celebrating with them. Who knows, maybe they'll tell us that we can stay home and sleep in our own beds tonight and just wake up early. That would be preferred, but whatever happens, happens! I have felt good the past couple days. The only thing I've noticed is pressure down on my pubic bone area. I have felt better today and yesterday than I felt on friday and saturday though! I was having some legit contractions at that point, but they went away. I hope I'm not digressing. That would be a bummer. It's kind of silly- which things are making me nervous. I'm most scared for the epidural application. Needles freak the heck out of me and the fact that it's a huge needle going into my spine is not my idea of fun. The IV also freaks me out. Lastly, the pains that I'll feel. I don't know what to expect and the idea of my body doing things I cannot control is freaky. Once that epidural is in, I feel like it will be a smooth ride. That is, till it wears off. Then I'll feel it. Anyway, I'm going to try my best to not think about any of it so I don't have an anxiety attack now. 
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